“To find the universal elements enough: to find the air and the water exhilarating; to be refreshed by a morning walk or an evening saunter; to be thrilled by the stars at night; to be elated over a bird’s nest or a wildflower in spring — these are some of the rewards of the simple life.” ~John Burroughs
Medicine is all around us. The question is… are you present enough to listen to know what heals. My healing today is in herbs. I made a nettle, dandelion, lemon balm sun tea infusion. Earthly heavenly bliss.
Sending love and light to all the people and animals of Oklahoma. My family lives there… luckily, it wasn’t in there area. May the ones who didn’t make it – let their spirits sore in the heavens. Remember we are spirit first, these bodies are only borrowed. Their love will always be present and shine forth.
The more I meditate and do yoga – the more my empath abilities are heightening. I have been taking on energy from people that is extremely heavy. I was walking last week to get coffee and there is a large planting of yarrow… This was sally’s favorite tea. I happened to pick one up and put it in some water by my bed. I am actually a little obsessed with smelling it. I was asking my clan for help in finding a protection barrier for me from taking on all this energy – a stone, herb, essence. Everyone of them said yarrow. I love how we found each other even before she knew I needed her. Now I need to find some seeds to plant in my yard, but for now I will be drinking her essence and having it with me at all times.
If you know me… well, I am a bit obsessive. A true sagittarius with extreme passion and fire. So my new things now are yoga and hula hooping. I practice all the time, hopefully one day I will be as good as this lady.
Meditation on my porch in the morning and at night – my ritual and very essential lately.
part of my garden, I can’t wait till all my seedlings bloom. Putting my hands in the earth and connecting calms me when I have a bad day. So grateful for the plant people.
I am behind again on art work. I need to get caught up and get my shop updated. I am working on a secret project… soon, loves.
my friend Nikki is helping me raise money for Conrad’s surgery. Need to get this thing off. He isn’t getting any younger. He is 12.5 and since Ansli passed he is starting to show his age a bit more. I love this guy more than anything.
Let’s be inspired and be great… ok?!
Quote of the day:
When you are inspired by some great purpose, some extraordinary project, all your thoughts break their bonds: your mind transcends limitations, your consciousness expands in every direction, and you find yourself in a new, great, and wonderful world. Dormant forces, faculties, and talents come alive, and you discover yourself to be a far greater person than you ever dreamed yourself to be.
Card of the day:
Ever watched a school of dolphins playing with each other, or with the surfers in their midst? If you have, you’ll understand the message Dolphin brings today—the message of joyful play. Dolphins are in total harmony with their environment, and practice love for each other—always helping the young, or a sick comrade. Join Dolphin’s happy community today and celebrate how much we’re all alike, instead of focusing on our differences.
I have been feeling extremely disconnected from life. From spirit. From everything and everyone – hence, my lack of blogging and I miss you guys… I do.
I am making changes starting this glorious Beltaine – trying a bit harder, I guess. I want to feel the magic again. I know it will come. Grief and the stages of it take time. I don’t talk about it to anyone anymore. No one really wants to hear how much my heart still hurts, so I am now just trying to work through it with my art. This craft fair has forced me to saw, draw, and work until my fingers hurt. I still haven’t picked up my camera, but I know that will come. Sally was my prime model, yah know. I didn’t realize how much I relied on my girls until they were gone. Ansli was literally my best friend in the entire world. She knew my thoughts before I did. She knew everything and sally just made everything silly. She made everything better.
ps. I will be putting the remaining sally shirts up to raise money for conrad’s surgery and hopefully Robyn will let me use her design for the new sally shirts. It will cost about 800.00 for the surgery. eek.
So the changes I am making will include this blog and a new one. New things, new information with herbs, food, recipes, gardening, photos of asheville life and animal spirits… it will be amazing. I am grateful for your patience in seeing me through this and coming back. Good things are coming. Tis’ spring – a time of renewal and bloom.
I don’t know where I am sometimes. Drifting, aimlessly walking, forgetting and then there will be times that I feel the sunshine so completely. Drenching my frail heart and sending healing through my bones. Sally passed away April 2. To write this and say it out loud makes it real. I haven’t been dealing with it – at all. I stay busy until I am exhausted. I work 7 days a week, I walk for miles at night or I force myself to paint my house or work on craft show things. Actually, I haven’t even done that and the craft show is in 2 weeks. I must get busy – I am so behind on everything.
All I can say right now is that… I am. I am here. I am being. I am working. I am existing.
I miss my girls more than I can breathe. I have been pushing my other babies away and I have to stop. I have to be present and love them as they love me. I have to find patience and healing within and all around.
So for today. For now. I am going to continue to find the sunshine each day, to keep walking and force myself to make the clouds lift. I know many will say be gentle and heal, but if I stop right now… I will crumble.
My friends have been amazing helping me through this- all of these emotions this month and for that I am grateful.
So love for today, friends. As I have lost two best friends – there may not be a tomorrow and I would give anything to have them in my arms.
My perspective has shifted radically the last couple days. This incident with Sally made me super aware of my intuition and it also made me aware of being present. A lesson that I talk about a lot – that I can’t seem to get. The vet said I should make the decision yesterday. Sally looked super bad, I won’t lie, but something said in me said no – not today. With Ansli it was different. She was bleeding internally and each moment grew more painful for her. I would never let my Ansli hurt. EVER.
I have been working with an animal intuitive with Sally and waited all day on the reply and honestly, I think it came at the perfect time last night and hope filled my heart. Having my energy and heart change has drastically improved Sally’s as well. She has been waggling that tail and following me around for breakfast all morning.
Sally said she wants to fight and when she is ready… she will go naturally. She knows this is hard for me and her and that she is weak sometimes but stay strong.
So perspective – priorities have all changed. I am moving into a house where we can be home more together, more cuddles, more play. I can have a room to study my animal herbalism and start taking it seriously to help Sally and animals like her, I will have a studio to metalwork and sew, yoga, eating better, but the key is… we will all be together. No more having to drive 20 min 3 times day. I will be working a ton at my 3 jobs but thank goodness they are shorter hours or night hours when the pups are sleeping.
So now… we take each moment at a time, I will do what I can with the limits she gives me, but right now she is limitless. She doesn’t like western medicine and wants to do it more holistically and that is what we will do.
Do you listen to your animals? Do you respect their wishes or force your own upon them and I don’t mean that to sound harsh. I have done that thinking that “I” know what is best. But they have opinions, they have wishes and respecting them as their own being means getting quiet to listen. Or if you were like me yesterday and are too emotionally involved – ask for help. I will keep you updated on what I hear from the vet today on the second opinion and getting fluids and I will also keep you updated on the things we are going to try for her treatment.
I love you all. Thank you for being with us through all these challenging puppy times lately.
So cheers to the fight in all of us, but especially Sally.
Thanks for supporting the mutts!
This will help with animal vet care!
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