I have been feeling so raw lately. Last night I sat at my computer reading my most cherished blogs I navigate towards when I am needing gentleness and guidance. I broke out in an outpouring of tears, not of sadness – honestly, I don’t know how to describe the feeling. It happened again tonight in the shower.
For the last few months, I have been drawn to certain animals – snakes in my dreams and other things. Some of them were nightmares and extremely unsettling in content and honestly, I can’t say that I like snakes at all, but I am drawn to her lately. I always thought it was weird that one of the large animals on my chest will be a snake and I couldn’t figure it out, but now I am understanding…
I think to understand the snake will help me understand what I am going through. I was reading through medicine bundles trying to figure out which one I should get, I do believe it changes what animal we are drawn to at different times in our lives. I so wanted mine to be something exciting like the coyote or horse, but when I was reading about the snake that is when my emotions started to flutter and I knew to keep reading because it was resonating in my soul.
This is what I read: “*the Snake medicine that is contained in this bundle carries the message of shedding the old skin and allowing it to fall away. signaling the the ultimate healing release, mystical snake is a healer and initiates us into our spirit lives. it does this by helping us transmute the effects of surface poisons, creating a connection with the deeper parts of ourselves. this works like a protection spell. Snake is a great medicinal toner and strengthener. she is death and rebirth, traveling easily between realms of consciousness and unconsciousness, circling and devouring new wisdom. primal, creative forces and other soul matter are becoming of great importance when Snake slithers up. Snake teaches us to trust the process of life: to let go of what is not needed and embrace our healing and growth.”
I also am a strong believer in healing stones. I have always been a lover a moonstone and this stone is also in the bundle and I love how it corresponds with the other items. She also includes the power of the flower as well. –
Moonstone –“*a smooth, tumbled hunk of moonstone is reflective of universal cycles of change. just as the moon is born, reaches full potential, and wanes to disappearance, so moonstone symbolizes acceptance of what was-and aids in releasing the old to create a channel for the new. moonstone is feminine energy: divinely calm, receptive, open, and dreamily clairvoyant. it connects us to our most spiritual selves during a time of great change, when underlayers are making the journey up. moonstone’s milky translucence reminds of snakes eyes when they cloud over before a shed. according to the Crystal Bible, by judy hall, “moonstone is a stone of new beginnings”.
I can feel my layers unfolding slowly. I can feel the pain at times and the joy, the tears, the creativity and frustration. I can feel myself wanting to break free from old routines and things and situations that hold me back. I can feel new creativity emerging but expressing it just isn’t there yet and I find that suffocating at times, but it is exciting to feel this transformation happening in all parts of my life and I feel the creative flow slowly starting – very slowly. I need this rebirth, I desperately need this release of letting go of pain and past.
Phoebe wanted so desperately to teach me live in the present and connect with my higher self. These animals speak to us and teach us such powerful learning tools for our lives. It is so important to be open to our environment, our dreams and the things we can’t see.
I know my coming here was for a reason. I think all the places and things I have gone through good and bad have been for a purpose. I think many a time, I tend to hold on to things for too long and I am realizing in part of my growth that sometimes you just have to let go. These last few months/years have been a big learning process for me, but I think these next few months while I am here will be the peak and then I will be ready for the next phase. I can feel it – in every aspect.
I guess I am learning to flow and unfold and see what happens. I just hope the skin underneath is smoother than the scales I am feeling now… I think it will all be good, though 😉
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What a beautiful post & it resonates with me so much. I adore moonstones and feel very drawn to them. I’ve also been feeling many of the same things you have lately. Letting go of pain and things in the past can be so hard.
I am glad it went over ok … I was super nervous to write it. In fact, I deleted it over and over. I don’t want my blog to come across as depressive as it has before, but I think it is just life. Sometimes are better than others and we learn. I think we both will come out of it and a lot stronger!