It has been a very busy week. I am exhausted, yet I can’t sleep once again. My mind won’t stop thinking…
I haven’t been able to shoot for two weeks. It is my fault, though. I had to give my equipment back when I left my day job and somehow in all that my own memory card was lost. I have been putting off ordering things until work picked up, but it seems there is no choice. I need to shoot. I need to create. Then there is where to move, when, how…and then the whole etsy project and my other side project and ….and ….AND my head spinning circles of many different colors. So busy in there. oh well. It will all work itself out…I hope.
My friend Amy’s dog passed. I feel such great sadness for her. I know so well the loss. How if I didn’t have my other kids, life just didn’t seem worth it. I know that sounds all emo and tragic, but when you lose someone that is your heart, that is how you feel. At least that is how I felt and still do sometimes. I miss Millie all the time, but especially when I am having a hard time and need her advice. She would always snail her way up to the bed and crawl right up beside me and just give me kisses. Telling me everything would be ok. I wish she were here to do that. She was my heart and even as I write this, tears won’t stop pouring. Losing the one you love just isn’t fair on any level and to say that is gets better with time is crap because it doesn’t. But she is what keeps me going…along with my six naughty dogs. Once everything gets going I have a secret project I am going to start…Yes, another project. I run a little slow to start, but they will get going.
Rest in Peace, Sonny. ~Millie will take care of you and probably even share her carrots!
Amy, I am sorry for your loss. Cry until you can’t cry anymore and then cry some more. Do something in Sonny’s honor. You will be ok…we love you and are here for you. Be brave.
on a side note: he packed up his belongings and his two dogs and is walking for Canine Cancer.
2 dogs 2000 miles and his blog, don’t forget twitter
I would do this for Millie if I could even attempt to walk with all six dogs…but I have something different inmind, hence my
secret project.
