Last night was a crazy storm full of thunder, lightening and heavy rain. It was a bit scary to be honest, but the hardest part is my pups. Mostly Jack. When Ansli was alive, they would both just shake and shiver… it would break my heart. I think she calmed him a bit even though she was scared too. Now that she is gone, he was coming out of his skin last night – nothing was working. So I am a bit exhausted today and hoping for a calm night tonight, but it doesn’t look at that way. Oh well.
In other news there has been a lot going on – good and bad. I met with a girl yesterday, who is the most adorable thing ever and so talented. It is was one of those amazing soul connections and the universe truly brought us together. This came at the perfect timing… Sometimes it helps not to feel alone and we all need this support – especially in our art. So we are working on a project soon and starting networking meetings with other photographers. I think this year will be wild fire. I know it will be a lot of hard work, but I am ready.
So you should check out her blog and photos and go tell her hello.
What do you do when your pups get crazy with thunderstorms?
I was writing this post in my head late last night and then tears would not stop flooding my pillow. I had this long beautiful letter that I wanted to compose and just felt so much sadness. I miss her so much. Since I posted her photo a few days ago on my fb, tears have been plentiful. I can’t look at Phoebe and Millie’s photos still without making a river. But also the last few days when I feel such deep sadness I keep hearing from Phoebe “stop mourning my death and celebrate my life.” Phoebe was always like that. Very direct and very much insist that I live in the present. The last month that she was alive I cried and cried and cried – vein popping tears. It was such a trying time with my overworking at my job, a failing relationship and I was frustrated with Phoebe. I wasn’t my best for her and guilt keeps showing up. I know she doesn’t want me to go there… Millie, either. I couldn’t let Phoebe go, because of how painful Millie’s passing was for me… and Phoebe knew that. She wanted this time to be different for me. She wanted it to be a peaceful and loving transition for both of us.
Ok. enough tears already. So instead of writing a letter, I am going to post this video from Phoebe. This was her song to me:
Let’s celebrate the critters in our life that have crossed.
Let us remember all the lesson they taught us and still teach us – if you are open to the spirit world.
I hope you check out Phoebe’s photo collection and smile. She loved smiles.
I would love to put up a collection and celebrate the spirits that have crossed. So if you like send me your photo and I will put them up on a special post for Sunday! email the photo to terrahblue@gmail.com
