I have been feeling extremely disconnected from life. From spirit. From everything and everyone – hence, my lack of blogging and I miss you guys… I do.
I am making changes starting this glorious Beltaine – trying a bit harder, I guess. I want to feel the magic again. I know it will come. Grief and the stages of it take time. I don’t talk about it to anyone anymore. No one really wants to hear how much my heart still hurts, so I am now just trying to work through it with my art. This craft fair has forced me to saw, draw, and work until my fingers hurt. I still haven’t picked up my camera, but I know that will come. Sally was my prime model, yah know. I didn’t realize how much I relied on my girls until they were gone. Ansli was literally my best friend in the entire world. She knew my thoughts before I did. She knew everything and sally just made everything silly. She made everything better.
ps. I will be putting the remaining sally shirts up to raise money for conrad’s surgery and hopefully Robyn will let me use her design for the new sally shirts. It will cost about 800.00 for the surgery. eek.
So the changes I am making will include this blog and a new one. New things, new information with herbs, food, recipes, gardening, photos of asheville life and animal spirits… it will be amazing. I am grateful for your patience in seeing me through this and coming back. Good things are coming. Tis’ spring – a time of renewal and bloom.
Let’s all bloom. Shall we?
Happy Beltaine, my loves.
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Can’t wait to see what the future holds for you. Much love to your healing heart.
Yes to more Sally shirts (I’m waiting on Robyn’s to add to my first one). And high five to blooming!
And also mucho hugs to you–you keep on hurting if you need to!!! It takes time….so take your time.
[I don’t know if you got my card–I didn’t know where to mail it except to the return address of the Mutt Collective package that was on my shirt order.]
xoxo