yah, WOW. That is what I say. Powerful, overwhelming, exciting and hope it sticks kind of moment. As you know the love of my life left me 24 days ago. I loved him more than life and I still do, but what we all want for the people we love is for them to be happy, even if that means with someone else. I really had to dig deep into my soul to not lose my mind and drown in the well of sorrow.
I am a fire sign I have very powerful feelings and emotions and for so long I have let these control me. Now, through all this, I HAD to learn to control them. I think that having this kind of personality can be awesome if you learn how to control it and not let the fire burn out or burn you. Your art can be strong, your words powerful and your whole essence something people will remember – if you are balanced. So my first goal to get through was just to get healthy – mentally and physically. I have been working out and taking calming herbs and eating calming foods. If you read about the doshas- pitta, kapha and vata, you can learn a lot about the food that can fire your elements or calm them.
Now I am on the second road of growth and I reached my aha moment. The time when you are like “yeah, I get it.” I have been reading a lot and I went back to a blog that has always just been so extremely powerful for me. Her words are complete enlightenment to me in every way. I absorb her words like a sponge. I feel such a connection to her work and her words, it is almost overwhelming.
. I love reading about strong, confident, independent woman.
I read a quote from Buddha the other day and that is what my aha moment was.
All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think, we become.
— Buddha
my friend told me years ago that my life was chaotic because my mind was. I remember that exact day she told me that because it hurt my feelings and yet, it was truthful and it frustrated me because I didn’t know how to change it.
Our words are power. Oprah says it. The Secret says it. Philosophers, inventors and creators say it. I think at some point if you want to change your life and your thoughts you have to start eliminating things from your life that don’t help you move forward in white light and good energy.
Just because I have had my aha moment, doesn’t mean life still isn’t or won’t be hard, but it is how I deal with things now. Nature and art can heal you and help you through life’s troubles. I don’t think the road to zen is paved with rainbows, but I am starting to see through the rain and sometimes standing in it and accepting it isn’t so bad.
