Today is day 9. I have had a big day with photos and words that really have nothing to do with each other.
The last few weeks for me have been pure stress and chaos. All emotions, feelings, situations and life coming to a head. Moving tends to bring that out, I think. Today was the breaking point. Today was enlightenment. Today is change.
I have a tendency to be a “stress cat”, to be neurotic and talk a lot and fast and crazy when I am stressed. I didn’t think I was that stressed until people pointed out my crazy and stress and my body started to hate itself with mouth sores, bloody lips, insomnia and I could go on…
I know it sounds crazy, but I guess that is what I do best, but I had my enlightened moment by watching Cesar Millan. Now anyone who knows me just knows how much I adore that man. I hadn’t been watching the show b/c I had seen every episode a thousand times, but tonight was a new episode and I had forgotten so many things in that non-watching time. For a few days I have been reflecting and going through some intense emotions of what I have gone through this year and even present.
I won’t go into details and bore you but long story short, while watching Cesar again. I realized I have to let go. I have to let go of trying to control things I can’t- situations that are consuming my thoughts, I have to let go of Millie, I have to let go of this energy that is holding me back and causing tension and stress in my household and my mind. I don’t want to move with this energy. Tomorrow I am going to a special place in the morning. I am going to breathe and cleanse my energy and thoughts. I know it won’t happen in that moment, but I can begin this new journey with a new breathe.
This might be all jibber jabber for some and not make sense. I have left a lot out, but maybe it will help one person out there not feel alone.
So today’s photos are just of day 9, nothing that really goes with this post. Tonight I was enlightened and tomorrow I am going near the water for healing and will have many photos and words to share I hope.
I saw this on my friend Heather’s facebook page. I like this quote:
For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone – Audrey Hepburn
