My dad is the coolest EVER (doesn’t he look like a shar-pei puppy).
He has offered to help me move at the end of Sept. I was kind of stressing about how I was going to manage everything and I think he knew that. Sometimes it is just hard doing things alone. As many times as I have moved alone, I can handle it, but this time…I needed help.
He offered to bring his little car and we could put a couple dogs in his car and he would drive my car with the u-haul. I hate driving with u-hauls. I mean, I can do it…absolutely. But this is a very long drive and I want the dogs to be comfortable and not too drugged. I hate sedating them but I want them a little relaxed. I will get strong sedatives and I have valerian. Ansli hates traveling, she gets so nervous. I don’t want to add to her grey hairs. I know it is still a month away, but time passes so quickly.
The last couple days have been really rough and filled with such sadness. Two days in a row I have woken up crying. I can’t stop thinking about Millie. Things I should have done and didn’t do. This time last year was when we started frequenting the vet and our goal for all of us someday was eventually Portland. When I adopted her I told her I would take her there.
So many mistakes I made in that situation. I will NEVER let it happen again. As soon as I get a job, all the dogs are going on raw diet and back to a more “natural” lifestyle…like we used to have. I hope to sleep tonight without so many nightmares of so many things. Not a pleasant way to sleep. arg!
I have a long weekend of work ahead of me, so I must get some rest.
oh…by the way. DID you freaking see this.
toodles.
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Your doing the best you can girl! Your move will be a positive one. Millies spirit will be there with you*
Thanks heather. I keep wondering if it will ever get easier without her. So much guilt.
Oh well. I guess we love them the best we can and then try to move on and help the next one(s)and you are right…we are moving in the right direction – I hope. 🙂
Terrah, I’m sorry the last few days have been rough. You can’t blame yourself for what happened to Millie…it wasn’t your fault…you should have been able to believe that she was getting the care she needed. We both should have been able to get that. Hang in there, good things are right around the corner.
thanks amy. good luck in LA!