I feel blue today. I have felt so tired lately and lost. I miss the boy…I see him maybe 2 times a week…that is hard. I really dislike my job, it might not be so bad, but I am not making any money. I don’t like these feelings…like I am just existing, getting through the days. I am not being a good mom. I should be walking my dogs more, but with working so much, it hasn’t happened. I don’t know. I think it is just a phase, I will make it change. I have to.
