thoughts

I have become a bit obsessed with hot tea – the steam, the smoothness of the honey and the intoxicating smell of the herbs simmering into a beautiful cup of bliss. I can’t wait for the time until I can dry my own flowers and herbs for a cup instead of the store bought kind, but either way, it makes me feel warm and fuzzy. I remember being introduced to hot tea for the first time. I had just moved to Los Angeles and had the most horrible move – a wreck on the way (it was horrible). A few days after things settled, my friend took me to Urth Cafe and we had a french press of Chamomile tea. The flowers were gorgeous and it had the most calming effect – I was hooked and have never forgotten that experience – so grateful for all the experiences along the way.

Lately, my thoughts keep having flashbacks of my past. Things I wish I would have done, jobs I wish I had not quit, experiences I wish I had not passed by because of insecurities. When I am tired, I let these thoughts bring me down a bit. Then I get online and start feeling comparison gremlins come up and stab my heart even more, so I have tried to stay off line and have tried to keep my mind busy, calm and positive. Do these thoughts happen to you? I have mentioned this a million times – my lesson from Phoebe – to live in the present, I guess I have a problem with being super hard on myself about the past and being scared of the future – that I won’t succeed. Everyday it is a mindful practice to stay focused on the now. To stay positive that all things happen for a reason and make you the person you are to become. I am so glad I am constantly evolving, growing, learning and changing.

This morning is overcast with rain and a hard chill in the air. It reminds me of my winter in Portland. I do have to say that I don’t mind a few days at a time of this, but I learned to be so grateful for the warmth and healing of the sun. I am enjoying this morning, though. The pups are wrapped up in blankets and my coffee is steaming and I have blueberry biscuits in the oven.

Today I am working on pouches. A few months ago, I had precut so many pouches and I hadn’t the thought I would be a bit tired of this pattern, but I will finish these up and start new things. I am not sure if I will have my soldering station right away when I move, so I am not making dog tags and enameled items at this time as far as metal is concerned. I hope to make some wall hangings with animals. I think they will be cute – I hope! At least, I think kids would like them.

I have to be honest. I am a bit nervous about looking for a part time job. I need one because I have so many classes and new things I need to buy for Le Howl. I found a class to learn herbs for animals,  animal shamanism and animal communication. Do you get nervous doing new things? I am such an introvert, but it seems the jobs always force me to be an extrovert and it can be sensory overload sometimes. I will try. I will carry my favorite crystal in my pocket. It always calms me down.

ps. I hope you don’t mind me posting iphone photos. I know they aren’t as glorious as the big camera, but I love having this small thing always with me to capture a moment and isn’t that what it is about anyways. I miss the LOMO days where you shoot from the hip and you get what you get because you aren’t trying to capture perfection but the magic of the moment. Plus, my camera needs to be sent in to get fixed and can be a bit annoying to use at this time.

Yesterday, I found this little one and she stayed around FOREVER! I talked with her and thanked her for coming to visit me. Praying Mantis medicine comes when we need calm and peace. Sometimes we can get so busy – even in our thoughts. She teaches us to be still and mindful of your movements. We don’t have to be so hurried and chaotic. I was feeling that way – overwhelmed. Like I had to get everything done and ready and then I got sick and it forced me to stop and then I saw her. So I decided to be calm and still yesterday. I crocheted and had quite a bit of puppy time and I did a little work, but I didn’t let things get to me.

The day before I watched a spider weave a web. It was the most beautiful dance I have ever seen. She was so fast and rhythmic in her movements. Her fingers looked like she was playing a waltz on the piano. She would dance up, and down and back to the center – all while spindling her fingers so quickly. I wish I had taken a photo, but instead I just lingered in her space – amazed.

Do you ever take the time to notice the things around you. There is so much to be grateful for each moment. Do you take the time to really feel the energy of the trees, take off your shoes and connect to Mother, do you notice the little animals that bring you teachings. Do you take the time to know what Your animals are telling you? Do you talk to them?
It will change your life.
I promise.

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I picked this card today:

Hawk

Hawk flies into your reading today to bring you an important message. It may come in the mail, e-mail, a casual remark at the grocery store, a randomly selected page in a book, or even a phrase heard on the radio. Be alert, as hawk messages can sometimes be delivered in a subtle fashion.

today’s quote for you:
“You can bring divine energy into your lungs by breathing. Feel the beat of your heart. It is holy light. When you become conscious of the Master in your heart, your whole life changes. Your aura goes out and influences everything around you. You have free will to recognize it or blind yourself to it. Be quiet and ask your heart. I mean, really shut up and listen to your inner voice. It will tell you this is the truth.” – Wille Nelson

PS. I am having a moving sale – 15% off until I leave! So go shopping! code: MOVINGSALE

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