“May we have the courage to take the step
Into the unknown that beckons us;
Trust that a richer life awaits us there,
That we will lose nothing
But what has already died;
Feel the deeper knowing in us sure
Of all that is about to be born beyond
The pale frames where we stayed confined,
Not realizing how such vacant endurance
Was bleaching our soul’s desire.”
My dad has been working non stop on the airstream every minute he isn’t at his job, poor guy. This trailer was completely rednecked by someone with cut out tin cans patching the top, acid down the drains, the floor patch with paper where it was rotting. I could go on and on but you get the picture. This trailer was in bad shape and so very different than the 78 Argosy my dad did before. However, progress is being made slowly as everything has to be custom done because nothing fits or works. There is finally water and the back end is strong and sturdy. Here are some photos that my dad took – of course, most of what is being done currently is stuff you can see:
So I start a 12 week exercise program this monday. I already pre started it a couple days ago and can’t walk. So out of shape, but the goal is to get back to
walking dogs everyday and this program. You know… doing it for the after photo. Just kidding, seriously though, I just want to feel better about myself and I want to leave
this place in a good head space and physically strong too. I do love the community of women in this program, they are so extremely supportive which
is pretty rad when you feel down on not being able to complete a circuit or something.. uh hmm. Like me on pre day 1 😀
The key: Keep showing up and trying.
I have been thinking a lot about the route we will take out and the the glorious place I will be going to. I really wanted to sight see and go down thru
New Orleans and up through Austin and such, but really with 5 dogs, I can’t stop and get out for a day. So I am considering all this and might just take the boring route. Of course, I might stop in Oklahoma at my parents to rest for a few days and
let the dogs stretch their legs and my friend wants me to come up to Vegas and see her. So yah, I guess I have some time to think about it and save. LOTS and LOTS of saving. I am really hoping it won’t find land to rent up there,
it is challenging going someplace new and not visiting, but I will start visualizing want I want. Usually, it works out pretty good when I do that.
On another note, we raised $29 for Pibbles and More rescue for our 2 week fundraiser. Not a lot, but it could be a handful of toys or a bag of food. Better
than nothing. The next fundraiser is with my most favorite person/ organization, so I am working on doing a series of pouches and necklaces with her logo.
So this year has been a rough one, actually since moving to Asheville it has been a bit of a wild ride and not necessarily a good one. I have felt guilty because this place is so beautiful and filled with such lovely people, but my magic isn’t here. I have tried but I think the weight of history for me in this short amount of time has outweighed the good.
So yesterday I started a spring detox. It was time. I think I had tortured my body enough this year with doing everything opposite of what I should. Eating gluten, drinking too much wine, not walking the dogs and if you know me… I have to walk dogs – it is my meditation. I can’t drink a lot because it messes with my energy and moods – being an empath makes it all that worse and well, eating gluten – I look like a pregnant wolf mama about to burst some pups out. So yes… it was time to stop the spinning and reboot.
Back to where I am going… I have had this place on my mind for a while – a year to be exact, but I had always looked at places like Austin, Portland – places with artists and dog friendly and the thought of Idaho?! seriously? ok, so I sat quietly yesterday and this place kept coming back to my mind and I sat and researched it all day, the sanctuary – Earthfire Institute, photos of the land and the surrounding area and my heart was bursting and I was almost in tears. I can’t really explain it.
I can’t say I am not nervous, scared and honestly, what the hell am I doing? So I am moving to a place to volunteer? ha, I guess I am and maybe I can manifest a job with them too. Maybe sometimes you just have to follow your heart and it will all make sense, because my head is like WTF? I don’t know if it is forever or a stop on the way somewhere, but it is a place I need to rest for a while and let the mountains speak to my soul.
However, the beautiful thing about living in an airstream, you can always move … anywhere at anytime 😀
ps. check out these photos of some of the sanctuary animals. Gorgeous!
So as I was researching I was super inspired by this gal – the dancing wind– (her tumblr is spectacular too) who basically did the same thing and her photos are amazing. So yah… that is the plan. I have to work at job #1 and my shop to save up money to get there b/c my truck is a gas guzzler and hoping to find land to rent as well for the airstream.
Manifesting it all. 😀
Have you been to the Tetons?
what is is like? Tell me everything.
When I get there I will tell you everything and so many photos. I can’t wait to meet the wolves and foxes. My heart is bursting…
I am not sure when I will be leaving. My dad is working on the airstream as much as possible, but as old things go, this thing had a lot of issues that of course I didn’t know about. I told him my plan, so he said he would add more insulation in it for winterizing it. Hoping in the fall we can head out!
For now, I will be buzzing in my shop and walking dogs and dancing and most likely gardening.
Spring wakes up my heart and so does having a plan. 😀
Hustle had his surgery today. It was a long day. He was dropped off at 9am but the surgery didn’t happen until 5:30. It was gross. He is super out of it, but is resting. Apparently, I am can’t bring home scraps from work either because he is super overweight. Ugh. We are all going on a program to get into shape and eat better – only fruits and veggies for them now.
But first some photos of Hustle and his Tumor.
ps. I just want to say thank you heaps to all that donated. I honestly wasn’t expecting a lot of donations, I just wanted people to go shopping in my etsy store. My heart is so full and grateful for the help. I have been working my arse off, but winter is slow in the service industry and it has just been a rough couple months, but spring is coming and things are looking up.
so thank you. so. very. much.
oh and I was getting kind of stressed waiting because it was taking so long and this little rabbit named Turtle came and jumped in my lap and started licking my hands.
I started to calm down. I freaking love animals so much…
so on another note. I am on a program starting today to get into shape. UGH! I am so out of shape that is could be comical. So the goal is 70 oz of water a day.
Eating mostly raw and some cooked and very budget friendly. No gluten, No booze – except on sunday. I get pizza, wine and chocolate (my cheat day!)
I am starting to exercise with some of these ladies and don’t kid yourself. I did 10 min tonight and quit, but I will keep pushing myself each day and I will walk the dogs each day for my cardio.
This place is a hodge podge of inspiration, musings and some critter love...
“This bridge will only take you halfway there, to those mysterious lands you long to see. Through gypsy camps and swirling Arab fair, and moonlit woods where unicorns run free. So come and walk awhile with me and share the twisting trails and wonderous worlds Ive known. But this bridge will only take you halfway there. The last few steps you have to take alone.” ~Shel Silverstein